Courage Under Earth, Wind, & Fire...and Water: The Girl's a Coward

What happened to the girl that didn't take any shit? Has anyone heard from that chick that didn't hold her tongue under any circumstances? The one who was brave enough to say how she felt, state her opinion while justifying her stance, walk away when absolutely necessary, & not compromise her integrity has officially left building. She's M.I.A. No note on the fridge. No lipstick on the mirror. No Fuck You letter to the world. Not even a mass DEUCES text. She vanished. No one knows what happened.

Here's what I think...

Word on the street is that she was starting to view everything she touched with fresh eyes. Someone heard her say that she felt like she stepped outside of herself & was seeing everything through a fishbowl. So what the hell does that mean? Sources say that she was starting to grow weary of the conflict brewing within, courtesy of external circumstances that weren't intentionally damaging but were in no way beneficial either. She began to question her loyalty to herself rather than to everything external.
If you ask me, she bitched out. She's a fucking coward.

If you ask her, she'll say the same.

In her own words: For a while minute, I succumbed to the elements of life. The earth, wind, fire, & water did exactly what it was supposed to do. Buried alive, digging my way out, each time the light betrayed the darkness I tried to see beyond it. A storm of dirt blinded and burned me upon contact. Defeated. Fetally protecting myself from the heat, struggling to see and escape the earthen tomb, there was sudden calm and release. Still buried, squinting through the darkness, peering toward the light, surrounded by a cool wet warmth, I tread. No room to swim. Barely able to see. Shielded by the only remaining element of protection, I tread.

Courtesy of one of the men who embodies and holds true to the Hippocratic oath. He's been a part of my life for 4 years. At 3pm on 3/15/12, he encouraged me to return to me...whenever it was, whatever I was doing...go back to me.

I did.

Bitch out no more.

Bitch for life.